Soo...
What's a girl to do??
On the one hand, I have the fairlytale. Picture perfect. A magazine cover.
Honestly, I've never been that girl.
On the other hand, I have untamed, unknown, and unplanned.
Now this, kids, is right up my alley.
I know that I'm supposed to grow and mature and want to settle down and wear an apron - gag - but damn it, what if that's just not me??
I am a great mom and I still go out, I still live to play it by ear, I still have outlandish dreams and completely illogical ideas. I don't want to be Miss Homemaker. And that's where I see my current path going. I'm struggling w/ the situation I'm finding my self in at this point of my life.
When did the rules get penned w/o my input??
I don't want to hurt anyone. That's just not me.
But do I go along on auto pilot, resolving to be pretty happy but knowing in my heart I wanted different?
And if I do, would that bring more hurt than I would right now?
Cause that kind of black hole cannot be avoided forever.
BTW - Is what I'm wanting just the idea? Or am I actually informed and equipped to make the decision? I have a feeling I'm basing this off feelings and transferring them to option 2, which could lead to a let down, but I'd still be free.
Oh Boscoe, I envy you right now.
