A Marriage of Moment and Meloncholy.

I hate the blah.
I dislike the clouds and the grey...
I abstain from indulging in the less than stellar.
And yet, here we are...
I'm having a "blah" day.
There's really no reason for it. Sometimes you just get washed away by the everyday and it takes and extra push to get you over the stale of routine.
I try to keep days like this at bay.
Here is my best defense:
These two = the cure.


<3




On that note, I will call me cured and move right along.
No use wasting the day in any sense or fashion.
Should actually hold some entertainment starting here shortly.
Plans are coming to fruition... and clocks are ticking down.
We shall see!

I Can Ramble 'Cause It's My Blog!

“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.” – Albert Einstein

It's easy to get caught up in the everyday.

The tedious... the mundane... the repetitive motions we string together day in and day out that fashion an existence.

In so many words, stuff gets old.

But sitting back, thinking about the past year (since I am at work, I have nothing better to do than reflect), I notice a theme weaving it's way in and out of the events that spring to mind:

Luck.

Pure, unbridled luck.

I will not lie; I am not the best planner, nor do I posses any keen sense of logic or sensibility.

I act on feeling, I propel forward w/o knowing where to land.

So I cannot claim any great accomplishment for the little miracles that seem to follow me in my day to day life.

I will simple hand the credit to luck.

I have been gifted w/ an overly pleasant existence in which I am surrounded by genuinely amazing. There is always something to keep me smiling.

I find it so frustrating when I hear people complaining about their circumstances or situation.

The way I see it, unhappy is a choice.

If you are not satisfied w/ where you currently are in life, there is no where else to look but to yourself.

People who walk around miserable have no one else to blame but themselves.

If you give control of your state and emotional well being to others, than please don't be shocked when you find yourself down.

Thankfully, this is something I was able to pick up on very early in life, thus avoiding the strain of waiting for someone else to validate my happiness (thank you, Moma.)

If I were spiritual, I'd say I was blessed.

If I were superstitious, I'd credit fate.

But I run my life on a whim.

And for now, I'll just thank luck.

Here's to the Loves

I feel compelled to write.
Not for any reason in particular.
No one has come or gone, no event or situation has had a dramatic impact on day to day living.
I'm simply feeling the need to express.
Although, I am not aware of what I intend to get across.
This part, we shall call rambling.
Things have been incredible and less than perfect all at the same time.
Life has a silly little way of keeping you on your toes that way.
Well, for me at least.
It's like steadily walking, calm and poised, across a tightrope over a canyon.
But, circumstances can always be worse, as they are for millions of faceless people everywhere.
So I do not claim the audacity to complain about my situation.
Instead, this is a learning experience.
A chance for character to bloom and integrity to take root.
A chance to prove myself to, above all, myself.
And a chance for appreciation to come to it's full realization.
I have a safety net made up of family and close friends who have proved, time and time again, that alone does not have to mean lonely, down does not mean drowning, and struggles are not the end.
Thank you, life.

Goodness Gracious!!

Where to start?

I don't know... does a whirlwind have a beginning location?

Basically, take everything about my life from a year ago - six months even! - and turn it on it's head.

One huge aspect - I am in love.

(That feels so corny to say, but there are no other words!)

Somehow, everything I ever wanted came true.

Not quite sure how it happened. For all I know, this whole instance could be some elaborate dream I've allowed myself to get swept up in.

If that's the case, leave me here in my blissful stupor.

<3

Wow.

There's been talk of marriage, kids, lives together and future plans.

I don't know when this subject gained appeal for me, but it's like all of the sudden, it holds a certain excitement that I can feel bubbling up and spilling over.

The same kind of electric sparks I get whenever he walks into sight.

He makes me smile.

He makes my cheeks hurt!

He makes me want to be better.

All of the sudden, forever is not nearly long enough.

I can't even describe the haze I've been walking around in lately.

Like I'm going through the day with a gauzy glow on everything.

It's absolutely ridiculous, but he makes everyday like Christmas!

It really happens like this?

I am content. :)