There's not really anything to report, and yet my head feels so clouded like it hasn't been ventilated in a while. I'm hoping that if I just sit here and spout off some randomness then whatever I'm trying to get at will come out. Cause even I don't know where my head's at right now. Not that I ever do. I just bought Luke his Halloween costume today! Spiderman. It's only September 29th, and he'd decided he NEEDS to wear it. I figure, the kid's 2. He can wear whatever he wants for a little while longer. So as soon as we got home, we both stripped him down w/ equal excitement and dressed him in the Spiderman outfit. He looked god damned cute :) He was running around the house "webbing" everything. I love that kid. God, I love him. So Cole and I haven't been spending much time together lately. Pretty much we sleep in the same bed, and even then it's on opposite sides. That's about the extent of our contact. He brought it to my attention yesterday. But to be honest, I've been pretty okay. Which I know sounds bitch (that's why this is my place and not ours). I HATE staying in, he HATES going out. I'm pretty sure w/ those parameters, we're bound to be apart sometimes. Which I'm totally cool w/. It's healthy. I just wish he would have some friends so we can both get the benefit of alone time. I love going out by myself w/ my friends. It makes me feel like I'm less under him. Like I'm my own person. I love not having anyone to answer to. Not that I have to answer to him. But when we're both out, I have to be aware of him and he never has fun. He doesn't like doing the things I like to do. I love to be out and in the middle of a big crowd and craziness. When I'm out on my own, I feel free. I love that. But anyways. Guess I hit something. :)
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